hurry up 2012

Well my life has taken more interesting turns. I know its WRONG but I keep saying I hope 2012 is a better year. And in my heart I know that 2011 has many good things in store for me. Anyways on Friday my children's father past away. He was a good man, a great father and a good friend to me. As they say "it was complicated". He was not sick. We assume he had a heart attack. Rachel says that Samantha was being a whiney baby in heaven and needed grandpa to take care of her. I ache for my children, Rachel because she is dealing with het own loses and my son because he. had so many "issues" with his dad (don't we all have some of those "issues". For me right now I feel very lost. Even though we had been divorced for 16 years he was my go to guy. It was the kind of divorce everyone should have (if you have to have one). I kind of feel after 16 years I am really "divorced". Anyways I want and intend to make this blog "fun" but I guess its important for you to know who I am. On the stitching front not much action. I did get the Mary beale sampler wreath pattern yesterday and although I hate to start another project it is calling my name. Maybe its just what I need to jump start my mo Jo. Because my way of dealing with things is always to have a plan or new project this fits right in. Although if your telling me Lord that I should not be cutting back on my stash enhancements just come out and tell me, the lessons I'm learning this month are very trying. Somehow I think that buying more needlework is not the lesson. I'll keep listening.